Falling Into Sleep (Demo)

Is this the end, this flicker and freeze?

My chest won’t rise, and time won’t breathe.

I reach for names, I reach for hands

But every heartbeat slips like sand.

I don’t want to go, I’m not ready to fall.

My lips won’t form the words I recall.

I’m still here, I swear I’m still here

But the edges blur… and the dark draws near.

I know You’re real, at least, I hope

But why does it feel like I’m dying alone?

The light's gone thin, the veil is near

Where’s the voice that cast out fear?

Then!

A thunder breaks beneath my skin!

The grave is cracked, the sky pours in!

I blink, and pain is burned away

I see the Lamb. I can’t look away.

I thought I’d beg for more of time

But all I said was, “Tell them I tried.”

I wept for the years I buried in fear,

For the prayers I choked, the nights unclear.

I cursed the dark, but it was in me too.

I bargained like death owed me a truth.

I screamed

but the scream never left.

Only a whisper: “Come. Rest.”

I didn’t walk in boldness

I crawled into grace.

And still, He came.

He ran to me.

The room was cold. My body, strange.

My hands betrayed me. My vision frayed.

I clung to life like rusted steel

Then lost my grip on what was real.

I fell asleep with war in my chest

Woke up robed, forgiven, blessed!

No fear remains, no shame survives

He held me dead… then called me alive.

The breath I lost, He gave back whole

The One I feared just kissed my soul.

Death was a storm, but now I see:

It was a door, and Christ met me.

I was afraid…

But He was not.

I reached for help…

And found my God.

I closed my eyes in a room of pain…

And opened them…to endless flame.